Piece of Mind #3 

I now realize that I don’t need to change completly. There are definitly still a lot of things I do need to change about myself. I don’t have to stop myself from going to concerts because that is what makes me happy. Although I do need to change the fact that I do near nothing for those in need. I need to be there and active in the community of people that want to help those less fortunate in any way I can.


So I think I want to figure out what classes I can take so that I can either work for an orginization that helps or who knows…even start my own. Because there may be a lot of people helping but there is never enough. 

I have been scared for far to long and I am still scared but thats okay as long as I don’t let it take hold of my life.

 I am going to work and losing the fear and figuring out the steps I need to take. 

I am also going to work on accepting myself. On the bright side I am going to a show next week so that is sure to take down my stress levels so I can release all this pent up stress and tension

Till next time 

T-A-E

bitesizedpcs:

Two Door Cinema Club - Sleep Alone

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educationisliberation:

I want to live in a world where people who look and dress like me aren’t associated with fear.

educationisliberation:

I want to live in a world where people who look and dress like me aren’t associated with fear.

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Piece of Mind #2

Just the other day I started to get upset over materialistic things and how I was unable to go to a concert. I posted something on Facebook. As I re-read what I had said I felt so ashamed of myself.

There really is much more important things in the world and I guess it takes time to get rid of thinking habits. I am just glad that now I can recognize when I am being sucked into these worldly possessions.

It is okay to be upset over these matters. Its only human. But eventually you have to open your eyes and realize that there is much more important things in the world and that your problems over clothes and going somewhere “fun” are just stupid compared to the bigger issues in the world. There are people who don’t have clothes and our lives are like heaven to them.

I am in no way saying that I am going to stop going to concerts and stop buying materialistic things. I am just saying that I am going to be more thankful for all the opportunities I have and as I said in my previous P.o.M post, try and do my part for those less fortunate.

T-A-E

Piece of Mind #1

There is a difference in saying you’re grateful, being grateful, and knowing you are grateful.

When you know you are grateful you have this constant nagging in your mind to help those who are less fortunate.

So now I am going to try and come up with a way to do my part.

T-A-E

July 9, 2011
Hitchin, England
The older crowd is much more fun to hang out with than the younger.
T-A-E

July 9, 2011

Hitchin, England

The older crowd is much more fun to hang out with than the younger.

T-A-E

Over the summer I left my home in the USA to visit Sri Lanka. On July 21st my father took me to meet one of my grandma’s adopted sister. Prior to visiting this part I had only seen the nicer parts and I didn’t know what I was in for. 
As soon as we exited the trishaw I knew we were in a less developed area and as we walked through this neighborhood I saw children without shoes and people in terrible living situations. From the outside it already looked like a very crowded place to live but as we reached the home I was visiting I saw that their door was weak and their home was probably slightly bigger than my living room. To make things worse their home was shared with about 10 people. I felt wrong being there with my fancy camera and my ignorant mind. 
As soon as I met all the people who lived in their house. The family ran and grabbed chairs for my father and I, while they stood because they didn’t have chairs for themselves. They used some of what little money they had and sent one of their children to go get a drink from the only house in the neighborhood that had a refrigerator. While I was grateful for their hospitality I was filled with guilt. They all were happy to see me and told me their stories of their struggles. 
If I weren’t already feeling terrible about their situation and terrible for my comfortable life that I rarely truly appreciate. It turns out that the main breadwinner of the house died 3 months ago.
Outside their door all the neighborhood children had gathered to see what the commotion was because I am guessing it isn’t all that often that they see new faces around. These children were unbathed and barely clothed with no shoes but had the biggest smiles on their worn out faces.
It was then that I found out the difference in saying you care and knowing you care. I also figured out that if you know you care you can’t just sit around and do nothing. It took seeing a less fortunate neighborhood for me to come to this realization. 
What struck me hard was that even though the living situation I was witnessing was unexplainable,the fact that there are far worse living conditions. I am not saying that one should go and compare the two because you can’t compare two bad situations and choose which one to help. You have to do your best to do what you can for anyone you can help.
I said my goodbyes leaving the small home and walked down the neighborhood where people continued to stare at me.
I felt embarrassed of my expensive camera, but women with their children asked me to take pictures of them with their children, because they would have no other means of having a picture of their family.With trembling hands I took a couple photos promising to send it to them.
My photos of this part of my trip are not very good because I am not as skilled as I would like to be but my emotion level was really high.
Visiting this home probably changed my way of thinking. It shattered the ignorance that I allowed to reside in my mind for so long and planted a need to see the world and show I care.

T-A-E

Over the summer I left my home in the USA to visit Sri Lanka. On July 21st my father took me to meet one of my grandma’s adopted sister. Prior to visiting this part I had only seen the nicer parts and I didn’t know what I was in for. 

As soon as we exited the trishaw I knew we were in a less developed area and as we walked through this neighborhood I saw children without shoes and people in terrible living situations. From the outside it already looked like a very crowded place to live but as we reached the home I was visiting I saw that their door was weak and their home was probably slightly bigger than my living room. To make things worse their home was shared with about 10 people. I felt wrong being there with my fancy camera and my ignorant mind. 

As soon as I met all the people who lived in their house. The family ran and grabbed chairs for my father and I, while they stood because they didn’t have chairs for themselves. They used some of what little money they had and sent one of their children to go get a drink from the only house in the neighborhood that had a refrigerator. While I was grateful for their hospitality I was filled with guilt. They all were happy to see me and told me their stories of their struggles. 

If I weren’t already feeling terrible about their situation and terrible for my comfortable life that I rarely truly appreciate. It turns out that the main breadwinner of the house died 3 months ago.

Outside their door all the neighborhood children had gathered to see what the commotion was because I am guessing it isn’t all that often that they see new faces around. These children were unbathed and barely clothed with no shoes but had the biggest smiles on their worn out faces.

It was then that I found out the difference in saying you care and knowing you care. I also figured out that if you know you care you can’t just sit around and do nothing. It took seeing a less fortunate neighborhood for me to come to this realization. 

What struck me hard was that even though the living situation I was witnessing was unexplainable,the fact that there are far worse living conditions. I am not saying that one should go and compare the two because you can’t compare two bad situations and choose which one to help. You have to do your best to do what you can for anyone you can help.

I said my goodbyes leaving the small home and walked down the neighborhood where people continued to stare at me.

I felt embarrassed of my expensive camera, but women with their children asked me to take pictures of them with their children, because they would have no other means of having a picture of their family.With trembling hands I took a couple photos promising to send it to them.

My photos of this part of my trip are not very good because I am not as skilled as I would like to be but my emotion level was really high.

Visiting this home probably changed my way of thinking. It shattered the ignorance that I allowed to reside in my mind for so long and planted a need to see the world and show I care.

T-A-E

Piece of Mind #3 

I now realize that I don’t need to change completly. There are definitly still a lot of things I do need to change about myself. I don’t have to stop myself from going to concerts because that is what makes me happy. Although I do need to change the fact that I do near nothing for those in need. I need to be there and active in the community of people that want to help those less fortunate in any way I can.


So I think I want to figure out what classes I can take so that I can either work for an orginization that helps or who knows…even start my own. Because there may be a lot of people helping but there is never enough. 

I have been scared for far to long and I am still scared but thats okay as long as I don’t let it take hold of my life.

 I am going to work and losing the fear and figuring out the steps I need to take. 

I am also going to work on accepting myself. On the bright side I am going to a show next week so that is sure to take down my stress levels so I can release all this pent up stress and tension

Till next time 

T-A-E

bitesizedpcs:

Two Door Cinema Club - Sleep Alone

(via pllainjane-deactivated20140126)

educationisliberation:

I want to live in a world where people who look and dress like me aren’t associated with fear.

educationisliberation:

I want to live in a world where people who look and dress like me aren’t associated with fear.

(via daydreaming-alien)

Piece of Mind #2

Just the other day I started to get upset over materialistic things and how I was unable to go to a concert. I posted something on Facebook. As I re-read what I had said I felt so ashamed of myself.

There really is much more important things in the world and I guess it takes time to get rid of thinking habits. I am just glad that now I can recognize when I am being sucked into these worldly possessions.

It is okay to be upset over these matters. Its only human. But eventually you have to open your eyes and realize that there is much more important things in the world and that your problems over clothes and going somewhere “fun” are just stupid compared to the bigger issues in the world. There are people who don’t have clothes and our lives are like heaven to them.

I am in no way saying that I am going to stop going to concerts and stop buying materialistic things. I am just saying that I am going to be more thankful for all the opportunities I have and as I said in my previous P.o.M post, try and do my part for those less fortunate.

T-A-E

Piece of Mind #1

There is a difference in saying you’re grateful, being grateful, and knowing you are grateful.

When you know you are grateful you have this constant nagging in your mind to help those who are less fortunate.

So now I am going to try and come up with a way to do my part.

T-A-E

July 9, 2011
Hitchin, England
The older crowd is much more fun to hang out with than the younger.
T-A-E

July 9, 2011

Hitchin, England

The older crowd is much more fun to hang out with than the younger.

T-A-E

Over the summer I left my home in the USA to visit Sri Lanka. On July 21st my father took me to meet one of my grandma’s adopted sister. Prior to visiting this part I had only seen the nicer parts and I didn’t know what I was in for. 
As soon as we exited the trishaw I knew we were in a less developed area and as we walked through this neighborhood I saw children without shoes and people in terrible living situations. From the outside it already looked like a very crowded place to live but as we reached the home I was visiting I saw that their door was weak and their home was probably slightly bigger than my living room. To make things worse their home was shared with about 10 people. I felt wrong being there with my fancy camera and my ignorant mind. 
As soon as I met all the people who lived in their house. The family ran and grabbed chairs for my father and I, while they stood because they didn’t have chairs for themselves. They used some of what little money they had and sent one of their children to go get a drink from the only house in the neighborhood that had a refrigerator. While I was grateful for their hospitality I was filled with guilt. They all were happy to see me and told me their stories of their struggles. 
If I weren’t already feeling terrible about their situation and terrible for my comfortable life that I rarely truly appreciate. It turns out that the main breadwinner of the house died 3 months ago.
Outside their door all the neighborhood children had gathered to see what the commotion was because I am guessing it isn’t all that often that they see new faces around. These children were unbathed and barely clothed with no shoes but had the biggest smiles on their worn out faces.
It was then that I found out the difference in saying you care and knowing you care. I also figured out that if you know you care you can’t just sit around and do nothing. It took seeing a less fortunate neighborhood for me to come to this realization. 
What struck me hard was that even though the living situation I was witnessing was unexplainable,the fact that there are far worse living conditions. I am not saying that one should go and compare the two because you can’t compare two bad situations and choose which one to help. You have to do your best to do what you can for anyone you can help.
I said my goodbyes leaving the small home and walked down the neighborhood where people continued to stare at me.
I felt embarrassed of my expensive camera, but women with their children asked me to take pictures of them with their children, because they would have no other means of having a picture of their family.With trembling hands I took a couple photos promising to send it to them.
My photos of this part of my trip are not very good because I am not as skilled as I would like to be but my emotion level was really high.
Visiting this home probably changed my way of thinking. It shattered the ignorance that I allowed to reside in my mind for so long and planted a need to see the world and show I care.

T-A-E

Over the summer I left my home in the USA to visit Sri Lanka. On July 21st my father took me to meet one of my grandma’s adopted sister. Prior to visiting this part I had only seen the nicer parts and I didn’t know what I was in for. 

As soon as we exited the trishaw I knew we were in a less developed area and as we walked through this neighborhood I saw children without shoes and people in terrible living situations. From the outside it already looked like a very crowded place to live but as we reached the home I was visiting I saw that their door was weak and their home was probably slightly bigger than my living room. To make things worse their home was shared with about 10 people. I felt wrong being there with my fancy camera and my ignorant mind. 

As soon as I met all the people who lived in their house. The family ran and grabbed chairs for my father and I, while they stood because they didn’t have chairs for themselves. They used some of what little money they had and sent one of their children to go get a drink from the only house in the neighborhood that had a refrigerator. While I was grateful for their hospitality I was filled with guilt. They all were happy to see me and told me their stories of their struggles. 

If I weren’t already feeling terrible about their situation and terrible for my comfortable life that I rarely truly appreciate. It turns out that the main breadwinner of the house died 3 months ago.

Outside their door all the neighborhood children had gathered to see what the commotion was because I am guessing it isn’t all that often that they see new faces around. These children were unbathed and barely clothed with no shoes but had the biggest smiles on their worn out faces.

It was then that I found out the difference in saying you care and knowing you care. I also figured out that if you know you care you can’t just sit around and do nothing. It took seeing a less fortunate neighborhood for me to come to this realization. 

What struck me hard was that even though the living situation I was witnessing was unexplainable,the fact that there are far worse living conditions. I am not saying that one should go and compare the two because you can’t compare two bad situations and choose which one to help. You have to do your best to do what you can for anyone you can help.

I said my goodbyes leaving the small home and walked down the neighborhood where people continued to stare at me.

I felt embarrassed of my expensive camera, but women with their children asked me to take pictures of them with their children, because they would have no other means of having a picture of their family.With trembling hands I took a couple photos promising to send it to them.

My photos of this part of my trip are not very good because I am not as skilled as I would like to be but my emotion level was really high.

Visiting this home probably changed my way of thinking. It shattered the ignorance that I allowed to reside in my mind for so long and planted a need to see the world and show I care.

T-A-E

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Honestly at the moment I am just a girl that is lost at a crosspath and just trying to figure out what to do wtih my life.


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Infinite love,

TAE

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